Input needed or thise whoget pychosis...

do you get disorganized thinking every time youre psychotic? I dont. Ive have 4 dr tell me i have SZA even my psyd but even he said i dont get disorganized and stay pretty coherent. thoughts? i was seeing ants running all over my desk at work and other things but still able to think kinda clearly. my newish but seasonsed pdoc says im unique bc im able to go to school with this illness but hes only known me when i was at a slight struggle NOT when full blown manic/depressed and psychotic. the last 5 years ive been in school havent be easy but i also havent been as sick previous years. ive been out of IP for 5 yeasr come may but he also didnt know i used to self harm which has been gone for 5 years too.

overall im MUCH better at managing symptoms but i mean 4 dr have all said bc i get halluincations and fixed delusions with paranoia even whenim not in a mood episode that its SZA. thoughts? i remember some crazy stuff ive done such as thinking satan was attacking and controlling me. id self harm bc i thought he was making me even in IP. then id carry and cross around inmy pocket and sing praise music to protect myself. i dont do that when im stable lol