I am trying to describe the feelings in details without blaming others
It is a warm spring day and I feel bad but this morning i managed to clean part of the house, preparing meals for my mother and washed my hair
I am now on the train going visiting my 92years grandma who is still conscious and gets angry when I am around
Possible trigger:
and she is sad i never had kids and I failed at career
when I was younger i wouldn't mind for a second but now her anger kills me
I am worried about the state I left the house, i wonder if I plug off every device and close the gas
Some rooms are not clean, i hope nothing happens