Have a pdoc appointment this week. I can imagine the conversation.

"Why'd you stop the meds?"
"My mood, anxiety, and impulse control was already as bad as it gets. Only possible thing that could have gotten worse is psychosis and sleep and I'm not even on anything for psychosis, and an inability to sleep along with hearing voices would've been a good excuse to go to the ER and get a ODT zyprexa."
"You could've just asked me for zyprexa."
"Yeah, but you would've given me more than one and probably not even ODT... it worked out though, I didn't get worse I actually am more stable than I've been in months."