I've just had a few sessions with my current T (I've known her before/she was on the ACT team all along just she wasn't in a therapist position), but each one on one appointment I have more and more anxiety beforehand. Was the same with my last and I saw her for like a year and then took a break and then again for a few months.
I've known this pdoc for a few years, but left the area and came back less than a year ago.

I'm just getting more distrustful of every part of the system as time goes on.