Thank you so much my friend. It is very reassuring to know people out there care. Restarting Is my only option. I just wish I could go back and do it differently. Some people have suggested I start a fundraiser, but I don't think I would want to go that route. I am just doing to pinch my pennies and hope I can chose to enjoy the experience in life rather than dwell on the negative. It is very hard but i am managing to handle it better than expected. However I have my moment to myself where I feel tears start to gether in my eyes and I cant help but almost laugh at my careless mistakes. .. bless you my friend