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Old Mar 03, 2025, 06:30 PM
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To your doubts about why she has not responded: most likely, she forgot or is busy with something else. If you wonder whether she is drafting a message, forgot, or hates you, try to always default to the option that is least self-centered.

Let me explain. People are in general busy, frazzled, and preoccupied with their own problems. This is a general state of being for a great many people, but nowadays we add to this all the digital distractions.

What is a person who is preoccupied with her many problems and TODOs most likely to do withbrespect to you: hate you, be en route to responding to you, or forget about you?

She is most likely to forget about you because she is preoccupied with other things. You are not a priority for her, but that does not mean she hates you.

Next on the list of hypotheses ranked by likelihood is that she is thinking of writing to you, but is not done. It is possible.

On the bottom of the ranked list is "she hates" you. This is highly unlikely, as hate is a strong emotion, and given the very shallow interactions she and you have had so far, the likelihood that you have managed to engender an emotion of that strength is very low.

Your belief that you are an object of hate based on shallow interactions is very self-centered, but in a negative way. Self-centeredness does not have to involve grandiose beliefs about self. It does not have to involve believing that the world revolves around you because you are royalty. It can also involve believing that everybody pays attention to some perceived or even real imperfections of yours. Most likely people do not pay attention because they are already overstretched and busy.

This situation you are in your FP, worrying that she hates you, is similar to many descriptions of social anxiety, where sufferers hold false beliefs that other people think of nothing else but said sufferers' failings. Usually, they do not. At least not if you are not inside a high school clique dynamic

Learning to live with your relative unimportance to others might help you offboard this highly dramatic and anxious train of thought you are on. No, she does not hate you, but she does not love you, either. You are of relatively low importance to her. Tepid rather than hot and cold. No more than tepid. And that is totally ok.
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