All night I was unable to sleep. Finally fell asleep after the sun came up. I just got up at 4 p.m. Now it will be even harder to sleep tonight.

It will be dark again in 2 hours. Then I'm kind of trapped in my apartment. My place is cold. I put the furnace on. It's small and can take hours to warm my place up from 60°F to 70°F. So I'm back under the bed coverings to keep warm. Yesterday I felt awfully alone.

These episodes often take 10 days to blow over. I miss my neighbor who died just before Christmas. We used to have coffee together and talk. Spring will be here soon. Already, flowers are blooming on one of my outdoor plants. I had wanted to go look at dogs at the animal shelter today. It's too late now.

Time passes, and taailspins end. I just keep telling myself that.