I keep hoping that I've gotten to the bottom but things just keep getting lower.

I used to like coffee, I had 3-4 cups a day ( it doesn't affect me, I can sleep right after coffee), I liked various snacks and had a pretty varied diet.

Now I have just 1 coffee, a piece of bread for breakfast and another slice of bread at lunch. Even that's not fulfilling anymore.

I'm dragging myself around.

Plus I think I might have a post viral thing happening. I'm really weak and have a hard time doing basic things like getting in and out of a car, standing from a chair, getting dressed etc. I saw my doctor about this and am waiting for appointments for some tests.

I think there's something going on though that's causing all of this (it has been a slow decline over at least a year). I can't seem to figure out what it is though. Could be family issues, or in getting triggered by some events happening now that bring up thoughts and feelings from when I was abused as a kid. It was really intense and went on for about 10 years.

My T and I are working through this and other things but they all seem related and we're trying to get to the underlying feelings.