He called.

We talked on the phone, and I know that he is concerned about me. He said all of the right things.

Before we hung up, he gave me some things to work on until Friday - like thinking about the benefits and risks of connecting vs. not connecting. I really WILL think about that, because I'm so torn in some ways. And he wants me to think of ways I can feel more empowered in my relationship with him.

Talking to him brought up a lot of feelings that were under the anger and fear I was feeling. I'm so bad at feelings - but I'm trying to just notice them and sit with them.

He made sure I would be okay until Friday - I think I will.