Hello.

It's been a time I have posted in this forum.
Anyway, for years my mind has been a mental fog, with no clear thoughs or memories. I strugle with very high levels of anxiety and I suspect I have Cptsd. Anyway I am on the obsessive side. I think everything over and over and over. I interact with other people and I have to have a meaning for their responses and what they tell me about myself, and it's mostly negative. And I have a urge to control my thoughs, my feelings and my behaviours. I am very stiff and have a great difficulty to let go at everything. I live like there is a huge strong vest in my mind controlling my words and behaviour s, a very big computer intrepreting others, and a wild beast running around around checking the other two are working their best (anxiety). It never goes down. It eases and the beast calms down when I am alone, but it is always there. Can someone relate to this?