Last night was not one of a lot of sleep. I got back on a stimulant yesterday (extended release dexmethylphenidate which hardcore feels like Xanax but all day and instead of sedation and disinhibition there is just inhibition and I felt really boring like I was a grease fire and someone took me off the burner and covered the pan) and had two cups of coffee with dinner and of course new place to adjust to.
I don’t know what I’m doing for meds today. Just kinda waiting for a call.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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