((((RozG)))) Thanks. I'm sorry you've had PTSD for so long.

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What I mean is when things are great in all areas of my life...kids are fine, I'm fine etc...it's quite low and I also think maybe it's gone or I was letting it be worse before when it was bad. But then something related comes on the news or happens to a friend....then it all comes flooding back just as bad.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> That sounds like what happens with me. I can be getting along just fine and then I'll be confronted with reminders out of the blue and it hits me again. It doesn't make me feel as bad as it used to, though, which is something.

I do know what you mean.

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Rio, with all due respect, it's not something you can control in my experience...sometimes it's low, sometimes it's high. You're NOT doing it to yourself, it's just sometimes your defences are better and sometimes not in my own personal experience.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Thanks, that makes sense.

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I'm sure a professional would disagree with me but they don't cry like crazy every time the subject comes up.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I remember telling my therapist that I was having a hard time when there was a similar event in the news...all he told me was "try not to get too attached", like it's that easy.

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I hope this has made some sense to you? If not please feel free to pm me and I'll discuss it with you personally. I'll even tell you why the event you talk of hurts me as it hurts you if it will help you, something I have never done for anyone!

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> It certainly has, thanks again! Oh, wow...thanks, but I'll be going on holiday soon and I don't know if I'll be able to get online again before then - I wouldn't want a PM that important to be sitting there for ages before it got a reply. I really appreciate the offer, though, that's very kind - and brave! - of you.