I was completely off stimulants for a few weeks because I wanted to switch to an extended release and not have to use an extra blister pack and remember to take it everywhere. I ended up going from 10mg in the morning and at noon of methylphenidate IR to 20mg of dexmethylphenidate ER.

My brain feels soooo boring. I guess it’s good, every doc I’ve seen says “we want [me] to aim for boring,” but this feels too…flat? I mean, I have emotions and shyt, but I don’t feel like myself in a very drastic way. I feel organized and in control. Too organized and in control! I feel like I should’ve gotten into a fight or something by now (just moved a couple days ago), but, no. Just been reading and writing, walking, getting things for the apartment as the need arises, and making small talk when I run into someone.

My appetite is also low enough I forget lunch until about this time of day (2:30pm), and then like right now I made clam chowder and am having trouble finishing it. Actually think I’m gonna reheat it.