@Blueberrybook yeah I think being around other people helps the dissociation. Like at home. I’m alone all the time. Because I live alone. So it sucks cause I don’t have another presence to ground me when I’m drifting off mentally.

Any time I start thinking about stuff related to my past and any current anxiety or feeling overwhelmed I dissociate. It’s like an automatic response now and I can’t seem to stop it completely, sometimes I have a week where I don’t have it occur but it’s usually at the very least 3 times a week sometimes more. My therapist said she can’t promise me that it’s go away completely but hopefully it lessens in frequency and intensity over time.

For me something that’s really grounding is practicing violin. It’s such a physical thing. Holding the violin, pushing down on the strings with your fingers, holding and moving the bow. All very grounding. And the sound.