I wish I had a decent trauma therapist. I’m told over and over I should really do EMDR but they don’t have anyone trained at my mental health center, and I don’t want to lose my pdoc just to get a new therapist (or pay out of pocket).

My last therapist did point out a lot of my current behaviors are based on past events (as the specifics arose) but I kinda already gathered that and now I just want to not act like I’m still in that past.