Why do I have to feel like **** but also not want to take medicine. My husband took of the closet panel for me to show me there wasn't a speaker in the wall. So yeah I've been a bit terrified of t and pdoc. Now t have to tell her Thursday.

Today we talked about why I don't like people in my house or have keys to my house, we talked about si and the hospital, masking, trust. How some of my stuff that we attribute paranoia is rooted in things that have happened.