I haven't posted here in a while. So hello to those who were there when I struggled with my therapy.

I have been seering my therapist since July 2017. We have a pretty great relationship and I trust her...HOWEVER, this week she said something that unintentionally sent me into a spiral. I always felt dirty and gross in regards to long term abuse by step-dad. Logically, I have no reason to feel this way. The abuser should feel these things.

Anyway, I was describing to her signs of my abuse that others should have seen but failed to do so. I told her of a specific event with pictures as proof. Her reaponse to my desription was wow that is gross. i KNOW it is in reference to what happend and what he did but it also triggers me feeling gross. Gross things happened and I was involved. I wish I didn't have to wait another week to talk to her. Sometimes I hate therapy and this is one of those times.