I'm sorry I've not been participating much, if at all. I'm not doing so great. It's not bipolar so much as severe anxiety. I'm back on taking Seroquel 12.5 mg twice a day in the evenings to remain somewhat calm but it's really rough still. It takes the edge off; it doesn't take the anxiety away. I've been having physical things that I'm sure are related to the anxiety. I've had migraines almost every day for weeks and get nauseous most days, migraine or not. I'm going to try to get in with my family care dr but want to wait to see my pdoc first. I was supposed to do that yesterday but the appointment was moved to next week. I just want to be sure this isn't something she can tweak before I go to him and not have any clue with my psych med options/restrictions are. With the MAOI I'm limited on triptans to 2. One didn't work much at all and the other gave me a 30 minute nap and then I'd hopefully wake up feeling better. I've not used them in years.

I just can't stand the political mess we are in. I'm just so scared and angry and I feel lost. I'm now at 5 months from my social security review being submitted. I've heard nothing. I also didn't get my social security tax form. I know I don't owe money but I would like to have the paperwork to show that in an emergency. So I have to make a trip to the SS office in town. I"m trying to be grateful that I have that option locally when I live in a rural area and just by chance have one here. Most people around here have long drives. But the waiting with the armed office makes me so anxious. I'm scared of guns and really do not like sitting there. I've put it off too long though so I just have to do it.

I don't know. I don't feel like doing much. But I have to. So hopefully my pdoc can help with the meds and my family dr can help me feel better overall. I don't like feeling like this.


I have so many things I wanted to say to people but they've slipped my rather holey memory at the moment. Sorry.