Thanks raspberry. I know we are all feeling anxiety about this and I feel like I'm being a baby about it. And when my body attacks to remind me I'm stressed it just makes me feel more angry at myself.

I don't know how late they are with social security renewals but I read that 4 years ago it took an average of 4 months to get an initial application decision. It now takes 8 months. So I probably should stop expecting it to come "any day now" as I've been doing every day since November. My therapist pointed out that I'm getting benefits and until my check stops I am ok. Just trusting that is hard. I keep thinking that they could deny renewals just to get the numbers on SSDI/SSI down.


I've been knitting hats to keep my hands busy. I spent so long on one for my niece.. When I went to pull the top together I tore the yarn that closes it and ruined it. So I'll be starting that again. Good thing it's warm right now.

Tomorrow something will go easily. I really hope so anyway.