It's not envy. You are feeling left out.

maybe you are being purposefully placed in these circumstances to make you feel as if you are envious.

I have felt envy, I felt that a partner (no longer with) was far better than me in the relationship. Instead of being the partnership we once were, I started checking Facebook to check what women were interested in him. I made myself jealous. I did uncover that I pushed him into the arms of another woman due to my envy.

Nowadays. I no longer feels envy, I feel pushed, brushed aside which has caused a new negative emotion that is worse than envy. It's resentment of those I truly love as they shove their perfect lives in my face, knowing that I am loving a life of loneliness.

There are far worse feelings than envy let me tell you.