Dear Lord,
I pray that You bless the world and all the wars that are happening. The world is in Your hands.
You know my life and all that has happened. Lord I pray that You may set me free from my past and show me a new way. You know that I am in pain, You see how much I cry and I know it breaks Your heart to see me tied to it. I know You want me to get over it. But I am not able to. I need something, I need Your help. I need the angels around me and Your guidance. I need You to keep me safe because even if I feel I am like a clueless bird, you see me as Your beloved child. I have only one request Lord. Either bless him the way You forgive people, or hold him accountable. I need You to bless me. I wont say that You are far from me, or that You avert Your eyes. I want to believe that You are teaching me detachment, how to let go, move on and be unaffected by the pains in this world. You see my tears and You have put them in a bottle. I know You are not disappointed in me. Help me not be disappointed in myself. I know You will walk me through it at my own pace. You are the God of healing. I am healing even when I feel like I am stuck.
I want to follow hope, not regret, but both are my friends, and both need Your love. I go to church each day since a while, and I write my prayers often. Help me sing Your praises even in pain. Help me release it day by day. Or week by week.
Thank You for blessing me with the strength to never reach out again to those in my past, even though they haunt my thoughts. Lord, help me read the book called body keeps the score and work on it with my counsellor. Thank You Lord that she is trauma informed. Thank You that she was available even on Monday. Thank You that the booking is so easy. Thank You that I can meet her in a day. You have blessed me in that. Lord, take this discomfort away from me. I pray and release it to You. Slowly. Since a part of me holds on, I dont want to deny it the need to express its nature of holding on. But I know You will set me free.

“Then the eyes of the blind shall be opened, And the ears of the deaf shall be unstopped.”
**Isaiah‬ *35‬:*5‬ *NKJV‬‬

One day the scales will tip and I will be more healed than hurt, and I will see the world through clear eyes, rather than denial of what has happened to me.

“My prayer is that light will flood your hearts and that you will understand the hope that was given to you when God chose you. Then you will discover the glorious blessings that will be yours together with all God's people.”
**Ephesians‬ *1‬:*18‬ *CEVUK‬‬

open my eyes Lord to the hope that You have set out for me, the future which is for my good and not harm. You chose me Lord and You have planned to give me glorious blessings to be mine together with God’s people. I have hope in me because God chose me, I choose Him back, I pray that light flood my heart.
“The Lord your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.””
**Zephaniah‬ *3‬:*17‬ *NKJV‬‬
You are good to us always, You delight in us. I am shocked to know that You are proud of me. That is all I need. I am satisfied. If God is proud of me, what shall I be afraid of? Noone can break me.
Be with me as I study today Lord, and help me give those thoughts to You when they come.
In Jesus’ Name I pray, Amen.