Well here's a March 2025 update.

The sleep pressure continues, but I'm getting more a handle on the stuff. I'm losing my house and it should be on the market in a month. Then I found some potential places to live and they're expensive and very small. Very. I am now 56 and I don't think anybody will hire me at this point, so I don't know what to do. And it's driving me batshit. I'm very nervous about my future, well beyond the bad health. Oh so I tried to see if I could try some drugs to stay awake, so my GP told me to see a cardiac specialist as he thinks I can't survive the drug. I can ride a bike like the wind, but can't survive a medication to keep me awake?

So cardiac specalist is an all round narcissist. Arrogance is a perfected hobby for him. So I went from 'heart ok' to 'you're gonna fall over tomorrow' in one appointment with a few questions. More tests which his office messed up, and he now sees me annually for the same investigatory test. Apparently I have an enlarged aorta.

So my life changes very soon yet again, with no clear line of sight what my life will be like. I never married and I'm fine with that, as historical dating has been an absolute colossal mess. So it's easy to avoid problems. But that leaves me trying to work on my computer chasing no job, or out walking around trying to stay awake.

The ENT said I have deviated septum, and that's about it. Nothing wrong with my head physically so fixing an enlarged uvula won't fix sleep apnea. This is neurological. Otherwise it would continue and it apparently hasn't. The apnea has subsided for the most part, but my sleep issues are all over the place.

Anybody have an insight for me? I don't know how my life got here, and I don't know where it's going. I spoke to a psychologist a couple of times, but she only said "ya you're going through some times." That didn't help. Just made me feel like I was conned out of some dosh.

Cheers