I wish I could fully express my feelings to someone, but no one would want to know: not L, not H, not here. But I still feel them. I’m also so scared. Scared for L, scared for our relationship, and a little scared for me though I’m mostly okay. I feel so alone. I don’t want to reach out to T. I don’t want to have my session with her tomorrow. I kind of want nothing to do with her. Maybe I’m taking my anger out on her? But I really don’t even want to try with her.