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Originally Posted by Iloveanimals25
I tried going through all the posts missed and I was just too far behind. I did post on page 22 and 23.
So I'm telling you this new therapist really wants me to work on my traumas. I got a workbook on cbt and it's nothing like the way I was taught 25 years ago.
So she suggested we do cognitive processing therapy. On like week 3 or so you're supposed to write out all your traumas in detail. First of all I have tremors I can't write it out, if I were to do that I would have a complete breakdown and end up in the hospital. My traumas are from age 4 to 30. One of them is from an organization I was in that has a good reputation and yes I was sexually harassed and blamed for it but was nlblamed for all my other traumas. They got in my head and I don't even understand it. It would take pages and pages to even explain how this organization works and how they get away with what they do. I just can't do that. Relive all my traumas, no way! So I have that cbt workbook and she's going to get it and we're going to work through it together. It's only 10 bucks and has over 8k 4-5 star ratings.
My son keeps breaking things that belong to this set up he got. Tonight I had to block him bc he kept changing what he wanted, then he'd say that will take too long to get here so I'd cancel etc. I did buy him what he wanted but he was still bugging me wanting me to tell him when they'd be where he lives after I told him to leave me alone. I just feel used by him sometimes.
I really need more help . I just can't stand long to cook. I can make like eggs and toast, but I like my eggs over easy so I have to cook one at a time. Toast and butter my toast on the couch. Or I can do pb&j on the couch. Bring the peanut butter and jelly as well as the bread to the couch. It's just hard. And I want help from 2-6 and nobody is replying to my ad. Ever since I had to quit my last job bc my back went out and I had to have back surgery I've slowly become a night owl. It's a ingrained. With my last care giver, she came 12-4 and I was exhausted bc I was losing so much sleep. I went into a mini mixed episode. I have to take care of my mental health first and foremost.
Nammu, how do you manage to cook? I don't use a walker, maybe that would help.
I hop everyone is doing OK and is getting enough sleep and not fighting horrible anxiety. 😀
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Do you have a hard time cooking because of standing for a while or because you have to be up every so often? What about pasta where you could put water on and sit down while it boils, get it to add the whatever pasta and stir and have a chair nearby so you can stir it every 2-3 minutes or so? I think they have easier to use strainers so you don’t have to carry and hold a heavy pot to strain it, but I usually just use the smallest pot and just make a little bit for myself and that’s manageable for me. I can make big pots of spaghetti but worry about losing my noodles to the sink. You could probably get a big spoon with the holes in it and take out the pasta before straining to lighten the load too.
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