Today I had my session with T. It was okay. She is definitely not L. She is completely CBT. Like she mentioned changing thought patterns and anger is the tip of the iceberg. Stuff I no longer like. We did my self-care plan. It was horrible. Normally L comes up with great ideas. Understandably, I had to do most the work. But I miss the help. We talked about logistics for the insurance (which still isn’t determined). And then we talked about my feelings. I told her the truth. That’s when she mentioned the iceberg. Then we quickly talked about my hopeful next treatment and about my meds. And that was it. 50mins. It felt so hard to not only be with her and without L, but hard in that I don’t feel connected to her. But I don’t want to be without support.