Sorry for the novel! I have a lot going on inside me and could use support. I do appreciate everyone here’s support. So much.

94 more days… I haven’t even made it a week.

I forgot to add that I texted L yesterday that I was angry at her. If that text was the last before the baby or the first after the baby that she saw I’m going to be pissed at myself. L mentioned in a text that she thought the next few days will be intense. Maybe she knows she is ready? I really hope not. I really don’t want the text to remind her of my selfish struggles.