I have a free consultation with a new therapist this afternoon. I'm feeling pretty anxious about it and it's making me acutely sad about missing P. I'm feeling stubborn like I don't want to allow anyone else in.

I have all my photos stored on Google. I don't think there's a way to segregate photos. You can put them in albums, but they're still in the main list. Even if I did that, I would have no photos. I mean that quite literally. When your life is tangled up with someone else, even pictures that don't specifically involve him, remind me of him in some way or another. Like the beach photos I mentioned. Or the photos from the day I went to the Chinese garden with a friend where the night before he was feeling some kind of way about it and did his damndest to keep me awake all night so I'd be too tired to go by repeatedly leaving our oven on broil with the door open so the smoke detector would go off, among other things.