I don't really know what looks like "needing to go IP" is. Do I feel safe with myself? No. I do know I will not once I get back from IP either, and I know they probably wouldn't admit me unless my team petitions for involuntary (because they can do an IEA if I am actively hurting myself without intent, but I can't go voluntarily because I'm not trying and don't have a set plan) because I do not have a specific plan including time, place, *and* method of severely injuring myself or other people.

But whatever. I always survive whether I want to or not.