The thing is is that you have the power -it doesn't matter what she does or doesn't do -you can make a choice actually you are making your choice but you could make a different choice. It sounds like want her to do something and impose it on you rather than you choosing to do it because it would be what you think is best for you. to me that's sort of keeps you in a victim situation which may be what's comfortable.This break would be the perfect time for you to see if you need less therapy or not if that's what you want. Instead of focusing on the therapist and what she does or doesn't do, and figure out what works for you to cope or not. You don't need her permission to do that. And since she's gone right now anyway you could practice it and see how you do without her and without constantly putting it in terms of what she does or doesn't do. Wanting her to make the decision is probably a natural human desire - but you could take your responsibility for what you want and do it anyway. It's like knowing a relationship is over but wanting the other person to leave first – it doesn't change the pain or the reality of a loss of a relationship it just keeps you stuck in it while you're waiting for the other person to act so that you can react. I'm suggesting you try acting rather than reacting. Anyway just a thought