After everything I have gone through and dealt with since August for him... for him to not trust me and I still wake to him going through my phone and what he's "screenshotting as cheating". I have sold pictures online, as he is fully aware of. When he feels nasty it's just ammo for him to fight me with.
I have gone through hell again and again for him. I'm now currently living cross country with him for the sake of having him around for me and the kids. I don't know how to feel anymore. Defeated I guess. I sold the house even. All because he couldn't faces his own charges. I have nobody here. I'm sad that I feel like I have no options out. I'm tired of waking in the same panic. I just feel like I lost everything and yet somehow part of me feels like this is " just how life is". I'm tired for always being wrong.