Hey thanks guys.

It was a wonderful, engaged, feisty, session!!!

He let me know that he heard me; that he read the letter I sent him last week. But he did it by being consistent in his redirection of the conversation--and not letting me hide in the moment. We talked a lot about cutting, and he asked me if I wanted to stop. At first I said no, but then I said yes, when he pushed me. Our conversation got pretty intense. He said that my H had no idea what I needed. It felt so validating because I really regretted that couples session from a few weeks ago...now I'm already thinking of dragging him back again.

So, I know you ask: "What does that have to do with those mooshy caring affirmations? Well, I'll tell you. I was able to engage in this conversation without getting mad at him. I saw his pushing as a way of caring about me, enough to help me talk through what I told him I wanted. I accepted his caring without turning it into an argument; without me getting mad at him. Well, we bickered a bit but with us, that's to be expected.

Sigh

I feel so cared for I am NEVER EVER EVER stopping therapy.