I’m still coping. I think I measure my success on whether or not I have a full cry. And I haven’t. I’ve teared up writing some texts, but no crying. Is that a good thing or bad thing?

I’m also still leaning towards only using T when necessary. I know it’s not wise to go without a therapist completely, but I don’t think I need her every week. We’ll see.

I got upset last night about something L texted. She claimed to understand my feelings because she’s had to wait for news after someone was in labor or after a surgery. Like no! I’m not notified of the labor and being notified of the birth could take days depending on if T checks her texts. I’m left in the dark for a long time. Like I don’t even know when to start worrying and praying, so I’m left doing it constantly.