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Mar 16, 2025, 10:38 PM
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Wanderer of Distant Stars
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Member Since: May 2012
Location: North Carolina, USA. Originally New York
Posts: 26,617
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I am a little manic too @June08 - sometimes I feel scared of being possessed myself - I honestly feel it was the devil that took me over last year during that episode. It felt demonic and I definitely was NOT myself. I battle with a lot of things. My ex finally emailed me, and it's the only reason I am going to be able to sleep. It is almost like a dopamine hit, and it's my addictions flaring up again. I had been a bit hypersexual too, and immediately felt guilty like I was going to be punished.
So many emotions I am feeling. I was bawling like a baby earlier. This has got to stop. My whole life is upside down in this purposeless void. I have so much to be grateful for and I can't see it because I am hyper focused on this one thing. Acknowledging it helps a lot. I just wish there was some way through it.
The good news is that I sleep good at night - if that was disturbed too, then I would definitely need to worry.
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