Really struggling. Feeling down a lot of the time. My apartment has become very messy, and the landlord's coming in for routine maintenance in a couple of days. Nothing seems to be happening, so I'm allowing myself a moment to feel sad. I feel like I'm wasting my life, and I don't have a lot of life left to waste. I'm sure this feeling will pass, but then I'm sure it'll come on again, and the cycle restarts.