My long-time pen pal/friend emailed me this morning concerned about my being on Klonopin. He said it can cause Alzheimer’s like Benedryl. I am much more worried about the Benadryl I took 8 years ago [trigger]when I took 30 25 mg pills at once and had to go to the hospital![\trigger] than I am klonopin. My friend says 2 mg/day is a lot but I read that that’s the average dose with a max of 6 mg! All psych meds can have terrible side effects and all we can do is try to minimize them. As you may know I’m on my last two meds I haven’t had a reaction to. Next stop: ECT. And nobody understands that! You might as well say you’re getting a lobotomy! I think one month of Klonopin is reasonable to get me through the initial side effects from restarting Vraylar. I do NOT want to go back to California last June where I had every side effect under the sun from Invega! I wasn’t in my home state so a med change couldn’t be made across state lines. I was miserable for a whole week! So glad I had pills that I could stop instead of the 3-month shot!

People just don’t understand! I am in choir for my mental health. My son sings in the choir and so does my ex his dad. Everybody is friends in the choir. It makes me happy! At the same time, I watched the video from Sunday and I was so antsy wiggling around and rocking back and forth as I sang! No judgements from the choir or director! Choir satisfies my soul! To do something I’m good at with people who are equally as good at it is wonderful! It’s as if those 6 or 8 years where I thought my singing voice was gone forever we’re just a nightmare!