I just got terrible news. My brother-in-law's father and stepmother just died in an accident. Their propane furnace malfunctioned during the night and they both died of asphyxiation. They weren't found for 5 days.

The meds are keeping me pretty grounded, but I'm constantly having overpowering thoughts of feeling like it is all over and I'm next and no one is safe. It's the truth, but when you have trouble getting past it then it becomes a problem. Maybe it is because they were only in their 50's and 60's and that it was accidental that makes it so difficult to deal with. Seriously what is wrong with me? I haven't seen them in about 7 or 8 years.