@Nammu Butterflies are hard to draw. I did one today from the 15 min nature book, but eh, it was colored mostly in black marker, and I don't think I did very well with it.

Last night before I fell asleep I started having paranoid thoughts which really is unlike me. I mean, I guess it was good I recognized them as paranoid thoughts, but it would be better if I hadn't had them at all. I slept pretty well until my cat Pecan started walking all over me and woke me up at 3:55 AM. Ugh. I fell back to sleep finally but still ended up getting up at 4:45 AM. I took a long power walk, and unfortunately I dissociated a lot at the beginning of my walk along with having flashbacks. Probably took walking for 30 minutes before it finally stopped and I could enjoy my walk.

I showered, had breakfast and read for 1.5 hr with the SAD lamp. At least I had good concentration reading and am enjoying my book. I drew but today's drawings were all a bit meh (in the creative corner forum). I think I petered out after drawing a butterfly & coloring it in marker. And H was having an online meeting in the next room, so it was distracting hearing his part of the meeting, not as relaxing as usual I guess. Maybe the Sharpie fumes from coloring made me a bit la-la!

Anyway, hoping for a better afternoon. My allergies have calmed down. A lot of oak trees in the area have dropped their pollen, and I'm wondering if that was causing me so much fatigue and very itchy eyes. Yesterday was the first day in a week or so I haven't had to nap in the afternoon.

HUGS to everyone having a rough time. I am lucky that I feel pretty stable and happy at times lately. It is nice to know that I still can feel happy, and I'm very grateful for this period of stability.