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Old Mar 26, 2025, 05:05 PM
AnaWhitney AnaWhitney is offline
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It is really hard for me to open up about my CSA to my T.
Sometimes she tries to help by self disclosing things in a brief way, and has said that she also has complex trauma. I don’t know if this means she has the same disorder as me (cptsd) but what she is sharing sounds nothing like my experiences and the more she shares, the more I think she doesn’t understand.

I know that she is telling me to try to make me more comfortable to share but she’s actually making me feel like a bad person, one of those awful people who thinks they get to decide what is and isn’t traumatic for another person.
I have wanted to outright ask her when she talks about having trauma like we are the same, if she has actually had CSA in her past, or has cptsd, because if not, then she doesn’t understand my experiences and shouldn’t act like it’s the same as hers.

I don’t want her to change as I generally love how she operates as a T, but this has been making me feel really bad lately and like I can’t bring it up without minimising the experiences she has shared for my benefit. I know there are different types of trauma, but I can’t help thinking now that the word must be overused in general.

I dont know if I am being too sensitive.
I feel like a bad person. My T would never minimise or judge me like I am currently doing to her. It’s affecting my ability to connect with her and making it harder for me to share my experiences and I don’t know what to do.

Thoughts please anyone
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