Today was a crazy day. I went to a meeting, that was really good and did a scavenger hunt on "things in the church" with my friend and her 5 kids. Then I spent some time in adoration.
Then my friend who got locked up in Virginia called. She got released somehow from Virigina and ended up in Raleigh which is an hour away. She left me a voicemail saying she wanted to come home and "you should start making your way to Raleigh now" almost as if I am expected to drop my whole life and save her butt. I got mad. Who does she think she is? Does she think I am a complete pushover? I definitely wasn't dropping everything to go get her. She then started with the guilt trip texts - "I have no one, I have no money, it's getting really cold" I feel bad for her I really do. But when did she become my responsibility? Her mom put a restraining on her, she hasn't called me in months, and all of a sudden, I am her ONLY friend who can help her?
I feel like this is too much for me. My mom, my sponsor and my friend said that I am just getting over what happened last year, and I am just now starting to take care of myself. She wants me to go to all the way to Raleigh and bring her home? Home where? The Oxford House she was living in gave her bed away, she was probably assuming she could come live with me. No Ma'am.
I am the point where I don't know what I can do to help people. Jesus says to help people in need, but this is beyond what I can do.
I texted her some homeless shelters in Raleigh and told her to go to my old rehab, they will take her in. She hasn't responded. She's probably mad, but I really have done all I can do.
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