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LadyShadow · Mar 30, 2025, 11:53 AM

Today was a monumental experience. As part of me being baptized, for every one of the three scrutinizes, (gospels during Lent), I have to go up to the altar and the priest prays over a special prayer of the "elect" (that's me). Last week he just had his hands over my head and prayed, today he actually touched my head with his hands, and I felt his prayer wash over my soul. These prayers are to exorcise my soul before baptism, (this was kinda interesting to me considering my history in mania and some of the experiences, (religious) that I've had). It's so hard to discern between deeply spiritual or religious experiences and mania, (I empathize with you @Moose72 so much). I am the ONLY one entering my church, so I am the only one coming up to the altar like this and I feel kind of really special. It's such an amazing feeling, especially when the whole church stands up and was praying for me.

I can't explain this feeling. It's like I finally found my purpose. Things are really going well with my ex too. I think I had like 8 emails yesterday - we talk a lot more on Saturdays when there is less responsibilities for both of us. He was an altar boy and knows all about the church, so I love hearing his insights on things.

I am at my parent's house now, and my mom made me breakfast. She is making dinner for all of us to eat and take some home later. Truly blessed and thankful today.

I really like Of Monsters and Men too @Mountaindewed - it's one of my favorite bands - "Black Water" and "Love, Love, Love" are a couple of theirs that I love.

Loving your saltwater taffy @Blueberrybook !