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Victoria'smom · Apr 01, 2025, 04:14 PM

School talk

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Oh, I start school this month. One class at a time with the stuff that transfers it'll take six years but as I complete classes at my pace, through coursera and any ACE course, I can transfer them in. I wanted to do faster but I have to relearn math, concentration is a *****. I need to go from algebra to differential equations.

I'm still having some psychotic symptoms so haldol PRN. He says we're running out of meds and I only have old antipsychotic and clozipine left but he'll tell me when we get to that point.

School talk

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It's not the school I wanted to go to but my previous attempts don't count against me. I can get a scholarship based of financial need vs merit. I keep it as long as I keep a 2.0 CGPA. So a new class every 9 weeks to focus on and any at my pace course that are tech based. After I transfer everything in that I can then I can take more than 1 course at a time. It's a long game but I want to do good so I can get into a good masters degree. I need to pitch to my Vocational rehab person that the long game is okay. If you have a 7-10 yr plan will vocational rehab help? I'll get my associates in about a year and a couple of months. Maybe I can start working a little then but by then I should be able to take 2 classes at a time. I can take up to 4 at a time but because it's not self paced and I'm not trying to hospitalize myself I think 2 is all I can handle at a time.

I'm not manic I just have no one that is happy about this to share with. I talk to my therapist Thursday and I think she'll be pissed. She wants me to destress. I'm alone and SI

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my wrists are itchy I REALLLY want to self harm

but I will keep typing and stay busy. I can't H is having a bad day too. He lost his phone and has to replace it but He has a couple authenticators on his phone so he's locked out of every account he has and there's no way to fix that, even with a new phone. If someone try's to get into his phone it auto wipes so even if he gets it back it may be wiped. So he's mad. So I really have to control myself and they didn't have the hadol at the pharmacy or I would have taken it by now. Why do I have to be like this? medication should just ****in work. now the only way I can listen to music is dying. Maybe WV T was right and I have a personality disorder. I'm not Sza. Questioning Dx and meds

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what's the point in medication if it doesn't work well? maybe I do need to be institutionalized I can't ****en wait 3 hours by myself. omg.

I'm going to go splash cold water on my face. not doing well.