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How can you know someone over 50 yrs and yet not know a thing about them ?
No , wait , that's not totally true. I did know a little about them. Yet I just was too blind to see and understand what I was seeing. I was too busy trying to understand myself that I let all the red flags just fly over my head.
If I was honest with myself , which I couldn't be , I would have cut the cord on many occasions. And some very early occasions at that. I would have saved myself from much grief , hurt , pain , etc etc.
I guess you get the idea by now. The irony is that I just " got the idea " myself , recently ! But it's too late now. Circumstances , like age , physical challenges
and mostly mental depression has put me in sort of a " shock " mode.
Unable to make decisions because of a mental paralysis. Part of me says " c'mon ,
get off your *** and do this or , and that ! And another part of me is just so f'in tired that I can't move ! So it really just comes down to me.. Could anything have really been changed ? That's a very big question , one that people are still debating , from time immemorial.
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Trying to Live in the Moment
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