I don't know what is wrong with me. Vocational rehab cancelled this week. I'm blocking noise by using earbuds. I keep feeling like something is behind me. I have therapy tomorrow. I'm empty. My mom was nice enough to buy food for us but ED voices suck. She got us stuff that requires all day prep and cooking. So I don't know what we are going to do. I can't prep and cook all day and h would rather just not eat. Plus some of the food h is allergic to. So now I have stuff but it's not going to really get eaten. There's so much. I'm just sad I feel like crying that she wasted her money.