I’m really down today and my thoughts are dark. I was supposed to be having my gastric study today and I just didn’t go. My stomach is giving me mucho problems. My gastroenterologist told me it might be an obstruction or paralyzed stomach. It could be life or death and if it’s a down day for me I won’t lift a finger about it. That makes the situation so much worse. I did reschedule for Tuesday at 9:30. I need to get off my own back and give myself some grace. I did not follow up with my doctor after the wreck either and I’m having some ongoing problems there. I’ve mainly been helping mom recover. She is still on pain killers and she has deteriorated. That also depresses me.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day. I appreciate you all. It helps me get out of my head and focus on other things - good and bad.