@LadyShadow I'm sorry you're having such a hard time today. I hope you'll feel better after going to church tonight; I know your faith is very important to you. I'm sorry your breakup was so hard on you. Have you considered you may need to cut communication with your ex for awhile, to give yourself a chance to regroup, to not be sitting on pins & needles waiting for the next communication from your ex? Because if it has you in such a state, it's almost as if your mind hasn't let go of the relationship especially if you get upset if you don't hear from him daily. Maybe it might be for the best to give yourself more time/connection away from him so you can focus on yourself first?