It’s not really other people respecting me or other people my age/ older asking about it, but I used to work at an amusement park and with little kids my worst fear was when they would ask what happened (I’d turn it into some bs story about saving a kid who broke the rules), but then there’s the guilt for lying even if it felt like the better thing to do.

and there’s just a lot of guys out there with the “grippy socks, grippy box” mentality that I have to protect myself from too.

I’m trying to urge surf right now but I wish I had someone to fking talk to real time where I could be like “hey, I want to do this, can we talk while I do t? And they not freak out? Because that’s not gonna happen. They also freak out always