I've been so... DISTRACTED. Like I can't actually accomplish anything! All I want to do, and have been doing, is sit here and scroll and scroll and listen to music and clean. I'm DROWNING in submissions here! I have a novel that needs to be written! I have stuff I need to DO. UGH. I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!! At least my anxiety wasn't too terrible today.... but that's just because I found three extra gabapentins this morning and took them. I just feel so... off.

My therapy appointment went well. Regarding my anxiety involving what the orange one is doing and what's going to happen, she advised me to just focus on the things in my control. There's a protest going on downtown tomorrow morning, but I prefer to retain a low profile so I'm not going (I voted! Happy to say I live in WI). I don't want to get tear gassed or shot or arrested and deported to El Salvador.

My husband and I don't know what to expect in Madison tomorrow. The venue is downtown where the protest is happening (like... RIGHT THERE). Hopefully nothing bad happens and everything is safely dispersed by the time we get there.

I don't know. I think I've been handling my anxiety a little TOO much with music therapy and need to stop because it's becoming too distracting. I've also been SCROLLING too much, which would be fine if I was actually doing some self promotion, but I'm not.

I'm just.... doing nothing.