I am losing weight, but I'm still in a healthy range. My IP doc tried telling me I was underweight (like I haven't memorized how many lbs is what BMI and what the cut off for a normal BMI is for my height!) but later told me she looked it up and I was right, I am still technically a healthy weight.
I really don't see not eating as ED behavior right now though. I see it as "I don't want to have such excruciating pain I'd rather die because I ate something I shouldn't have." I also see it as "the foods I have available to me are very limited because I have to have my fridge unplugged or I'm going to go on a homicidal rampage." (I did send in a maintenance request to check it out, no I haven't heard back yet)
I'm not counting calories and freaking out if I go over a certain amount. I'm not weighing myself daily or over-exercising. I just don't want to be crying for three hours wishing for death because I ate something with cream in it and my stomach is revolting.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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