They added 2.5mg zyprexa to treat an eating disorder (that's not the issue right now--they literally did blood work twice that proved something linked to my pancreas is angry, but my follow up to my follow up to my pdoc is before my "follow up" with my PCP for that thing which isn't even something they scheduled it's something that's been on the books for months anyway). But either way, they're not happy I'm fitting in my XS's again.


I'm supposed to take the 2.5mg before dinner. I haven't taken it since I've been discharged. This morning I thought I'd get in trouble for not taking it so I crushed them up and rinsed it down the sink.

I'm also supposed to take 5 or even 10mg if I sleep less than 5 hours a night the following night. I've not gotten one night more than 5 hours and only took the PRN my first night back when it wasn't even technically indicated, but I woke up real early and they weren't doing med monitoring that day so I said eff it and went back to bed.

I think if they really wanted me to gain weight they wouldn't have put me on adderall and topamax (supposedly to artifically increase my adderall levels, for migraines, maybe a little mood stabilization, and because it's the only medication sometimes used for bipolar I don't scream "I'M LILITH NOT EVE!" when I hear it's name)

I can take morning meds, I can take night meds. Other than that...