That was after the fact though. I was supposed to have it before dinner and I already ate. Taking the zyprexa after dinner would be like taking a sleeping med once the morning alarm goes off. I just don't want to get in trouble for skipping it.

And I am in a healthy weight zone, and I don't think getting akathisia and diabetes is going to stabilize me.

I know I'm being a pita. I'm catching myself being bad, and I know it. I just can't stop myself right now. I'm sorry.